Feeling brighter today 😊 Have a meeting after lunch, but so far it’s been a good day.

I miss you. 

Sleep x 

Long day. My thighs ache. I left my glasses at work. Didn’t sleep well last night. Hopefully a large dose of Night Nurse will knock me out later. 

Trying not to love someone that you love deeply is as impossible as trying to love someone that you don’t love. 

Sleep x 

My feet ache. Glad that day is done. 

Some days it feels like I’m tripping over my tongue, but silence isn’t my way and that’s why this begun. 

I could keep it all locked away close to my chest and never write a word, maybe that would be best. 

Time passes feelings too, but honesty is the respect I want to pay to you. 

So forgive me for having so much to say, but if I don’t write it down it’ll just fade away. 

I sometimes want to write things down. Things that are in my mind, my thoughts. Words that are on the tip of my tongue that I’ll never get to say. I’ve left so much unsaid. 

Walk with me. Let me taste the sweat from your brow while you read my mind. One track as it is, but it covers distance. 

I’d like to wrap you round my finger, not to own nor to keep. Possession is not in my thoughts, I want to wake you from your sleep. 

Still I’m stifled, like my hands are tied. Just wishful thinking I keep it on the inside.

Wind from my sails, heart from my chest, but there’s still a part of me that will outlive the rest. 

You got my mind. 

Who you are is magnificent, a star on a distant shore. Out of reach now, but always  iridescent  as before. 

Who you are is irreplaceable. The missing piece that made me whole. The echo in the emptiness, the space inside my soul. 

Who you are is inspiration, for every word I write. You’re the cold space beside me in the middle of the night. 

Who you are is time consuming, you fill every moment of my day. Like an hourglass inside my head, I hope you never fade away.

I have a new writing pad and I intend to use it. From now on Sunday’s are for writing. A table by the window until it’s warm enough to sit outside. 

Beautiful morning. Nice day for a wedding. 

First real signs of change in my garden. So looking forward to spring. Going to try my hand at growing flowers for cutting this year. I want flowers everywhere! 

Beautiful wedding 😥 

Peonies they don’t bloom for long. 

It feels like the past couple of months have been leading me somewhere, but I’m still slightly lost.

Picking over the bones of it for guidance. The leaves still fell and the new shoots grew. Memories I’ve kept a few. 

The world didn’t end, but I felt it jolt. Someone else’s momentum bringing life to a halt. Out of my hands. 

I’ve tried….fuck I’ve almost begged, but I’m done. So the words that humbled you will always be yours, to have and to hold. The ink remains wet infinitely. 

Beautiful morning.  The birdsong so vibrant. Spring is close. 

Friday thoughts: Some people make promises as easily as they break them. Don’t count on those people to be there, your happiness isn’t in their plans. 

I have a wedding to go to tomorrow. I have to buy shoes….I can’t find anything I like. Barefoot?